Final Saturday, October thirtieth, the Our bodies By no means Lie dance firm had our second present since opening in August. The theme was all issues Halloween, haunted, and horrifying. Which implies sure, I did a solo. Completely horrifying!
It’s a chunk of previous Southern folklore that evil spirits who come out at evening might be trapped in glass bottles hung in timber. The parable of those ‘bottle timber’ started with clear traces within the Congo within the seventeenth century. It could possibly presumably go additional again to Egypt, Mesopotamia and Africa with the start of glass bottle within the markets. The thought is that when positioned within the timber, particularly at a cross roads, the sprits will climb within the bottle and be unable to climb again down the slender bottleneck and can stay trapped there till morning when the solar will destroy them.
Shining a lightweight on all unhealthy issues tends to minimize their energy, proper? Not less than it does in mythology.
The thought of trapping these spirits fascinates me, I suppose as a result of I really feel as if I’ve so many ghosts of the previous trapped inside myself, my reminiscence and my physique. Not different spirits, extra like variations of myself that stay with me as a result of the concept the ghost of myself that didn’t have diabetes, that didn’t have a incapacity from the extreme neuropathy, that can have the ability to dance once more like I used to, is tough to let go. I need to carry her again to life and would gladly swap her for the physique I’ve at present, with it’s limitations and continual ache. On this method, I can’t inform if my former self is trapped inside my reminiscence or if my present self is trapped inside the former self’s shadow.
I haen’t absolutely made peace with this present model so I made this solo to assist, and to shine some mild on these darkish paces the place I let this ghost stay.
I can’t say it was absolutely pleasurable dancing once more, since I can nonetheless keep in mind so clearly what it appears like to leap and switch with much less weak spot. The feeling of being unstable and fragile after I anticipate, from years of expertise to really feel sleek and highly effective is disorienting on the nice days, miserable and crushing on the times after I’m bored with this. I’m engaged on the concept being in my physique, and dancing, might be good no matter my bodily situation, particularly compared to a former or idealized bodily situation. I’m doing what I can do now.
On this method, I really feel absolutely current. And absolutely alive.
Are you holding on to any ghosts from our previous?