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It’s going to be okay. – The Bloggess


So.

Right this moment is Victor’s twelfth day of by no means leaving his room, as a result of regardless of the truth that it’s been the ten really helpful days of isolation, he’s nonetheless a bit sick and continues to check constructive for covid. Technically he’s most likely superb to be round us however he’s very conservative and needs us to be secure and possibly additionally doesn’t need to depart his fortress of solitude the place you by no means need to do dishes or scoop cat litter.

And it’s a bit lonely however superb, though we’re speculated to journey subsequent week for my work and possibly gained’t be capable to since he has to have a clear covid check to go away the nation and I’ve learn some individuals nonetheless check constructive for months. If I used to be a traditional individual I’d simply go on my own however I’m not regular and my nervousness is just too extreme to journey on my own and I’m feeling a bit of shitty about myself due to it.

I do know it’s okay. I do know we’re fortunate to have the ability to isolate right here and that Victor isn’t sicker (thanks, vaccines) and that I’m even given great alternatives to journey even when my mind makes them unimaginable more often than not. However it doesn’t change the truth that I used to be feeling very pathetic once I began this submit. After which I seemed up and noticed my Christmas tree, which remains to be up (though 1/4 of the lights have burned out) regardless of the truth that it’s now February.

After which I felt a bit of worse. And I thought-about taking it down however then I made a decision to not as a result of truthfully, I’m battling a contact of despair exhaustion and I would like a bit of bit of colourful lights even when they’re are a shiny reminder of my poor housekeeping abilities.

After which I seemed exterior and noticed that the bushes have been weighed down with ice and I felt unhealthy about the truth that I nonetheless haven’t changed the crops that died within the final freeze a fucking 12 months in the past and puzzled if anybody else on the earth is as behind as I’m in every thing. I walked exterior to see how unhealthy it was and realized that if I had changed the lifeless bushes they’d most likely be lifeless once more at the moment and that’s perhaps not the healthiest approach of it however as a substitute of feeling shitty about myself I congratulated myself for skipping one spherical of lifeless bushes by simply leaping to “nonetheless lifeless” as a substitute of “lifeless once more however costlier”.

After which I seemed inside at my Christmas tree and from my yard you couldn’t even inform {that a} quarter of the lights are out or that I’m weeks behind on deadlines or that the laundry is stacked greater than my head. You could possibly simply see the twinkling lights, and the television flickering from Victor’s room and Hailey dancing in theirs and Dorothy Barker along with her paws as much as the glass door as she whined for me to return again in and snuggle her.

And it was form of lovely.

Typically it’s all in the way you take a look at it.



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